Comments on: It’s my party

By: Amy

Amy — Wed, 03 Feb 2010 03:03:57 +0000

All my thoughts and prayers are with you. Love ya!

By: Tami

Tami — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 06:46:05 +0000

Beens, lots of love to you!!! You are never far from my thoughts!! xo

By: Buzzy

Buzzy — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 23:33:55 +0000

Ahhhhhhhh Beens. I really think you need to turn these into a book. You are describing things so honestly and completely. As a friend, I am so appreciative, even if it makes me feel more helpless to help you somehow.

Love you!

By: Zenny

Zenny — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 17:11:37 +0000

Lots of love coming your way. Every. Single. Day.

By: sarahfeather

sarahfeather — Sun, 31 Jan 2010 22:46:44 +0000

I think the loss of innocence is the hardest part of cancer. No longer being able to blithely fast-forward in your mind to the retirement years, or watching your great-grandchildren play. Feeling slightly adrift.

Go ahead and cry – you shouldn’t feel guilty for it. Wallow, nap, eat chocolate (dark, organic) and then get up, hug your kids and go for a walk. It doesn’t get better, but it gets more familiar, and less scary.

xoxo
Sarah (The Carcinista)

By: Audrey

Audrey — Sun, 31 Jan 2010 18:19:24 +0000

Eileen,

I am so sorry the last several weeks have been extraordinarily difficult for you. Never having been through this myself, it seems unfair to even try and understand what you are going through. All I can do is continue to pray for you and send all my positive thoughts and energy your way.

I am glad you have such a tremendous support system to help you through the highs and lows of this journey. Stay strong and keep fighting! My thoughts are with you and your family today and everyday!

Love,
Audrey

By: Nancy

Nancy — Sun, 31 Jan 2010 14:32:39 +0000

As you continue your battle, I think back to my own fight and when the chemo ended…..the fears when the drugs leave my system will the cancer come back? Will I have to go thru this again? I was weak, both mentally and physically…..I didn’t know if I was strong enough. I felt left lost without my visit to my chemo nurses who had become friends and supporters. I guess what you are feeling is so normal. Continue to accept your feelings and express your emotions, because like I have said before, you inspire others with your courage. Thank you for sharing this journey and by the way you are more than entitled to a “Pity Party”. Good luck with your upcoming Dr. appointment. Hugs and prayers from an old friend and fellow survivor. I love you!

By: Susan

Susan — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 23:47:24 +0000

You continue to amaze me with the raw honesty you share with the world. Thank you for letting us share in your journey in such a personal way. You stay in every thought I have, and I am inspired by your strength. I’d love to see you soon…I send a virtual hug until then.

By: Kristen Brooks

Kristen Brooks — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 21:07:41 +0000

Think of you everyday. Going for genetic testing for Breast CA and use you as my inspiration. “If Eileen take take all this sh%&, then I can go get a little test done for my kids.” My sister and my mom think I am NUTS ! What else is new.

I wish I could be there to give you hugs, take the kids out, shop, do anything. I will say we had a HUGH party, cake and all for my dad on his last day of Chemo. For a non-cancer person, I had no idea what impact it would have. My dad said for once he felt normal. The people in the infusion suite asked for us to come back again when they were done their chemo. Hmm….I think of those folks often as my dada and I talk about them and wonder ?!

Lots of love comes form us. We think and talk of you often in our prayers. XOXO

By: Patty Ogden

Patty Ogden — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 19:01:09 +0000

Eileen,
Life to me is always a paradox. One of my favorite lines is from a simple musical you may have never seen. It is, “The Fantastic’s” and at one time held the record for the longest running Off Broadway play. You may know the song, “Try to Remember” which was the main song of the show. In it, the paradoxes of life are very simply addressed: like why we all must have problems before we grow again. Then El Gallo, the main character, goes on to say, “I do not know the answer…I merely know its true.”, as he watches the two young lovers be hurt, but grow and stay together. I don’t know why you have to do this and we all know you would not have chosen this. The paradox may be that you will grow in ways that may not have been possible without this cancer you are so strongly fighting. You may have the opportunity to have a deeper understanding and appreciation of life. Through you and your sharing your struggles, we who care about you and follow your blog, may also be changing through this paradox. I will continue to think of you and say to you “Press on!” We love you!